What would Ann want?

Stuck in the middle

I am sitting here in Michigan on a beautiful clear and sunny 75 degree day which happens so infrequently here. There are no majestic mountains or cliffs to walk to and I am 2 hours from Lake Michigan.  I am  in the middle of the two places I would like to be today.  I have spent the past week praying and talking to Ann to get a sense of what she would have wanted me to do with this day.  I searched the internet for flights to Maryland and even to Utah to see how I could make it to Ann's memorial.  As I serached it became clear that I would not be able to get there.  So I decided I would have my own memorial here. I got up at 6:00 to get Eddie and Clare to the bus for their track meet . I then drove an hour to watch them throw and run and give their all for their team. I felt peaceful and proud as I watched them. I spent  the two hour round trip in the car telling my husband John about my memories of Ann and how much I miss her and listening to NPR together-- that's when I realized I was doing exactly what Ann would want me to do.  I may be here in Michigan but my heart is split between Utah and Maryland.  I am sure  the memorials will be beautiful